As I was coming in to work today, I had many thoughts about life. Things such as what I’m doing, where I’m going in life, and just life in general. Thoughts that I want to share with you even though it makes me vulnerable, and maybe a little bit scared to even post this, but post it I will!
I’m a youngest born…I crave change (I know that’s weird), and there is an inherent need to be constantly happening, moving and changing, ebbing and flowing. When I get like this, I think of the sea and the tides. Always moving and changing, tides and waves. That’s probably why I love the sea so much! I have trouble living vicariously through others, rather I’d like them to live vicariously through me. Perhaps that’s a bit selfish, but by nature, we all have touches of selfishness, youngest borns more so than others!
Since I returned from Italy, there is nothing more I’d like than to return, or really, travel to any of the fabulous wine regions outside of the continent on which I reside. Hearing of others’ trips to Portugal, France and Spain, and seeing more photos of other friends trips to Italy, (thank you Facebook…) makes me want to go all the more! Here’s the catch: I have a full time job, I have a husband, I have (teenage) children… and oh yes…all of this travel business costs money! As much as I’d like to, I can’t just pick up and go hither and yon, traveling to multitudes of wine regions. So I have to suck it up and look at others’ photos of THEM traveling to all these fabulous wine regions, or listen to THEIR stories of being at these fabulous wine regions. I fully admit I get jealous of all the single people, or the ‘without children’ people that can for the most part, just pick up and go. And I moan and pull a lot of “woe is me”, because why couldn’t I have figured out what I wanted to be when I grew up when I was a LOT younger?
But just when I think that I will never be able to do any of these things, I know my time will come. And you know what? I have a full time job that I love (how many can say that?), I have a husband who fully supports what I do, and I have 2 amazing daughters who love me completely, and I get over myself…